One day, everything came crashing down! Fortunately, moments like this do not happen in one fell swoop! They were planned well in advance, even before I was born. Unbeknownst to me, each action, step, thought, and year of my life prepared me to face this difficult period. Today, I look back with delight, since these storms helped me make the most important discovery of my life—my self.
Over the years, and for all sorts of reasons, I ended up forgetting what moved me, what spoke to me, what dwelled in me. Then, one day, I felt a tremendous sense of unease. I had thought I knew all about myself! But at this moment I no longer recognized myself (in this me) and my mind was tormented by all kinds of questions, though I found no answers. I knew less and less! Completely tired and burned out, I was no longer able to make any progress. A refrain drifted through my thoughts, returning over and over like a cry sent up from my heart to my head: “Let your inner artist express herself.” Who was this artist? What did she want to express? And why had I never heard her before? The maelstrom inside me became so intense that I thought I would never be able to find inner peace, balance, and calm.
Then, one day, I felt a profound sense of well-being. My heart was soothed and no longer cried out. I had made some decisions and was finally listening to it. Today I feel much better, thanks to these life-changing decisions. Although they involved a great deal of self-abnegation, they are in harmony with who I became—I feel joyful now, and I know, listen to, hear, and express myself as an artist, even if it is not always easy. I found renewed serenity right before celebrating my 40
th anniversary on this wonderful life path.
Have you experienced a major change or significant event you would like to share with us? We invite you to send your contact information and a brief account (maximum 400 words). We will select only one text from all submissions received, and we will be sure to maintain the author’s anonymity.
redaction@monespaceinterieur.com